This life I have been given.
It is just me right here.
Me, this body, this night,
and Fear.
But.
I am scared to give in to the night
though it is there my dreams may find dawn's light.
But the night holds darkness and
the darkness holds fear.
And fear is someone I've come to know quite dear.
But where does fear come from?
Does it come from within?
Because within our own selves
We are Universe and Eternity
Akin.
Where did this thing called Fear come from
that is all-consuming grief.
It is all-consuming darkness.
It is all-consuming belief.
He takes who you once were
and makes way for shadows to win.
Fear beguiles your mind
until you doubt your soul from within.
How do we not give into the fear of this world
that is created to be
a monopoly of fear
crushing down upon we.
How do I say
No. Not this time.
Not this life.
Not this day.
Because this life I Awoke
and this life I am ready to say.
That I am done with the nonsense.
I break free from this fable.
I am finished giving and serving
for the mere scraps at Fear's table.
When my table is bigger
and my table is fuller
and my table is welcome to any-
who know we are all.
A sanctuary for us to rise after the fall.
So let me open my table
to the world around.
My doors are open
come let me hear your sound.
Let me hear your life.
Let me hear your woes and joys.
I want to be human with others
instead of being caught in the noise.
What is this world we've created?
And how do I look up and say
I am Awakened.
I am ready to create a better world for me.
I am ready to create a better world for we.
I want to be a part of a world that
believes in the hope of change.
I want to be a part of a world that knows
it is not the amount of money to your name.
It is the energy of your soul
that came here to create
so that you may leave this world
a more beautiful place.
How do I escape?
I step one foot out and Fear comes alive.
Yet
I am beginning to learn
that darkness only has the right
to be a shadow of the light.
But why do I get caught in the shadows?
And why do I stay down in fright?
My life is not static noise.
It is not an old played movie
that you put on in the background.
My life is a firework display
of light and sound.
It is madness.
It is chaos.
It is control
dissolved.
Because I as me?
I am absolved
from the rules of Fear's world
and the darkness at play.
I do not answer to Fear's whispers
nor do I answer to his games.
I have been forged by darkness
and I know when something comes from fright.
But I also know when someone is a light
emerging at dawn to break a new day.
When you wake up and see me
you will know I am not away.
You will know that I am still here
and that I am not scared.
I am here only for a moment
and I feel ill-prepared
to walk across this world
released from the bondage of shame.
Knowing Fear has no power
nor will I bow to his game.
He knows I will never stop.
And Fear now trembles at my name.
But.
This power within me?
I know not how to tell you
what it is to be undone.
But you will know it when you know it
and you will see me there when all is done
waiting on a bridge with a sandwich
at a small wooden table with others who are famished.
Fear has no place here
at our Table of light.
So sit down and eat with me.
For dawn has broken through our night.
